Reading “Born to Run,” part X of infinity
...continued! I've passed the part where Bruce records “Born in the U.S.A.,” thereby achieving mega-fame and riches. He has married and divorced Julianne Phillips, which he recalls in a rueful way, shouldering all of the blame and admitting to his shady spousal behavior. He has married Patti Scialfa, disbanded the E Street, had three kids, escaped from LA, and settled back in New Jersey. There are many battles but the only real foe is himself. Life is like this for most people, of course, and he makes no bones about it (as David Letterman says, "Maybe life is the hard way"): he's interested in the how and the why and the what-for, and he digs for it. He wants the answers and does the searching and when he feels he comes up short, which is often, he owns it. Bruce Springsteen is a rock & roll star and a decent man, is what you'll learn from reading this book.
He loves his wife:
My wife is a private person, not known through whatever her "public persona" may be, and not nearly as fond of the limelight as I. Her talents have only been hinted at in her work. She has great elegance and dignity and we've built a lot together out of these broken pieces. We found once those pieces were set in place, they weighed in as hard stone, each piece pressuring and holding the pieces above and beneath it for twenty-five years (in a dog's life and musical companionships, that's somewhere around 175 years!). Two loners, we weren't necessarily destined for the gold ring(s), but we stole them...and locked them away.
He loves his kids:
The raging river of my ambivalence, my lifelong low ambient hum of discontent, is silent. Dismissed by rapture. The doctor hands me scissors; a snip, and my boy's on his own. I lay him upon his mama's belly and this vision of my son and wife takes me far into my own highest room. We are huddled together with seven pounds and eleven ounces of living proof. We are one short breath of night and day, then dirt and stars, but we're holding the new morning.
He loved his therapist:
In all psychological wars, it's never over, there's just this day, this time, and a hesitant belief in your own ability to change. It is not an arena where the unsure should go looking for absolutes and there are no permanent victories. It is about a living change, filled with the insecurities, the chaos, of our own personalities, and is always one step up, two steps back. The results of my work with Dr. Myers and my debt to him are at the heart of this book.
Whew. It's been an emotional roller coaster and I still have 100+ pages to go. Bruce is verbose!
To be continued...