I have some things to say, finally, as the brain fog lifts and the long slog through my least favorite season nears its inevitable yet welcome conclusion.
A - My dog. I love him so much. He’s consumed my entire life but he teaches me endless lessons (every mistake he makes is my mistake) and brings me—truly—boundless joy. He is the best thing I’ve done for myself in years.
B - Also: drugs. I got the anti-anxiety medication the same week I got the dog, so I can’t really separate one from the other. They both make me tired and they both help me chill. If forced to choose I would choose the dog, but this isn’t [insert name of your chosen dystopia]. I’m from America, I can have it all.
C - Kim’s Convenience. I would shout this from the rooftop if I thought anyone would listen. Watch it! It’s from Canada.
D - The Reddit Puppy 101 board was a true savior to me during the first 2 months of puppy ownership, but there are also a lot of dummies out there. No you can’t let a 9-week-old puppy wander around alone in your house and expect it to behave like an adult dog with full control of its senses or bladder. It doesn’t have any! For fuck’s sake! Get a goddamn crate!
E - Maybe it’s not necessary for me to blog anymore. Maybe it’s okay if this part of my life is over. I’m tired of internet thinking and internet writing, and trying to cram my experience inside of it, of packaging my life into palatable pieces of content for an unseen, unknowable audience. Maybe it’s time to just…let go and move on. I don’t know yet. We’ll see. TBD!